Sahmversary!

Today is my one year sahmversary! Last year on this date Josh and I made a monumental decision I would stay home with our children long term. I had been working at the Arkansas State Hospital for an entire 2 months! It was the longest two months ever! When I saw Emery Jai for the very first time I knew immediately that I wanted to stay home for a while. I could not have left her for anything. But I was not ready to commit to being a stay at home mom. When Emery Jai was about 7 or 8 months I thought I was ready to go back to work, boy was I wrong! I missed her just as much and wanted to be with her as much as the day she was born. I loved my job at the hospital it was everything a job should be rewarding, exciting, and monetarily gainful. After the "new" wore off, about day 4, I regretted my decision immensely. I have to say Emery Jai was in very good hands, Josh kept her 4 days while NeNa kept her 1. I even tried to work 3 12's, I hated that more. For three whole days I did not see my child except to tuck her in to bed. It was like having split custody. Even though I missed her so much and came to realize she needed me the older she got in a lot of ways much more than when she was an infant, making the final choice to stay at home was kind of hard. I never saw myself staying at home, but having a baby changes EVERYTHING! Josh was/is wonderful about me staying home. It goes without saying that at times having one income can be stressful, Josh never ever complains about it. He is very proud of me for being a full time wife and mother. For some reason I felt he might begrudge me for the sacrifices* we make that enables me to be with the kids full time, again I could not have been more wrong! I am completely, content, happy, and proud to be a SAHM! I proudly and confidently say I stay at home and LOVE LOVE LOVE it!

*I do not like to say that I make sacrifices to be with my kids, as a very dear and wise friend who is also a SAHM once put it, "I have never heard an 80 year old say man I wish I had had a nicer couch"!

The reasons I am a full time mommy!